Monday, August 31, 2015

ENLIGHTENMENT IS A UNIQUE FORM OF INSANITY


Life is like a fishing net.
Focus on the whole, not on the net.
That is what the fish does.
Even a fish has that ability.

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If there is a hole for IT to get in
then there is a hole for IT to get out.

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A mirror doesn't care who looks into it.

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Radical change
demands
radical action.

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Enlightenment is a unique form of insanity.

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One cannot know the Self,
they can only be the Self.

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It takes great courage to live without belief systems.

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The root cause of all fear is
ignorance.

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Suffering will never end
until the cause is removed.

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There are no problems without incorrect information.
Incorrect information creates confusion and conflict which causes negativity.
Negativity, in turn, manifests as war, destruction & death.

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Illusion is based on a false point of reference.

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In between fight or flight
lies peace.

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Appearances are deceptive.

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Courage doesn't float on the ocean like seaweed.
One has to go to the bottom to discover it.

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God gives the tools.
The Guru teaches you how to use them.
You do the work.

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True happiness
is the ability to give up what you don't need.

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A peaceful mind is the basis of a joy-filled life.

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If you take the lesser,
you cannot have the greater.

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Death is not of the being. It is the death of time.

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True power comes from belief in myself.

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One can only be free from what one understands.

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The same switch that turns the TV off
is the same switch that turns the interest on.

Friday, August 28, 2015

WHAT KIND OF HELP?



If you're stuck in quicksand yourself, how are you going to help someone else get out? Keeping your own feet on solid ground is all the help anyone needs.

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I refuse to accept the world as it appears today! Absolutely unacceptable!
I REFUSE!

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A poor man never made any money out of war.

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There is always work for one who is willing to do it.

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Destruction of ignorance manifests God.

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In all the TV & Movies that you've ever seen...have you ever seen a regiment of vegetarians going to war? Eating meat overheats the mind which turns into aggression. A small spoonful of Tigers' meat would kill a man if he ate it.
That's a fact.

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The only way to conquer the word is through love. I see the world as a child of love. Without love there is no world.

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Everyones' actions affect everyone.

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Every warrior has his shield.

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One can only survive with unity.

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I had to find strength within myself to survive.

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How can any society be at peace when its people have not made their mind there best friend, their mate? Whoever is looking for a 'soul-mate', make your mind your best mate and the search is over!

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Right & wrong is mans' consciousness.
Correct & incorrect is Gods consciousness.
Perform correct actions and live a regret-free life.

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PRISONERS OF TIME (SONG LYRICS)




(These are the lyrics to a song Guruji wrote 10 years ago.)


Prisoners of time
Felons of the mind
We break the laws, commit the crimes
We sell our soul for nickels and dimes.

Man where are you going with your technology?
It's based on greed and violence
And it's called democracy.
No time to stop and listen
No time to ponder why
We're headed for disaster
The Universe will cry.

Prisoners of Time
Felons of the mind
We break the laws, commit the crimes
We sell our soul for nickels and dimes.

Children there are many
Values there are few.
No time to stop and play with them
Because the credits due.
It's business as usual
A frozen pack will do.
The TV's going constantly
Designer clothes and shoes.

Prisoners of Time
Felons of the mind
We break the laws, commit the crimes
We sell our soul for nickels and dimes.

Vote for me, send me a fax
Vote for me, I'll cut your tax
Vote for me, please vote for me
I'm all for the death penalty.
Vote for me, I want your power
Vote for me this very hour.
Vote for me and don't despise
The fact that I am full of lies.

Prisoners of time
Felons of the mind
We break the laws, commit the crimes
We sell our soul for nickels and dimes.

We say that we want answers
But I don't think we do.
The pain of feeling separateness
Well, that's addictive too.
Who am I without problems?
Who am I without name?
Who am I without shape and form?
Who am I without fame?

Prisoners of Time
Felons of the mind
We break the laws, commit the crimes
We sell our soul for nickels and dimes.

For those of us who will not share,
For those of us who do not care
For those of us who will not bend
Well, it's fast coming to and end.
'Cause time is an illusion, created by the mind
And once the mind stops moving, there's no such thing as time.

Prisoners of Time
Felons of the mind
We break the laws, commit the crimes
We sell our soul for nickels and dimes.



When I was keying these lyrics in I asked Guruji if it should be 'souls' or 'soul'? He said, 'Soul', singular .....there's only one.



One mans gain is another mans loss.


Tuesday, August 25, 2015

WITHOUT BOTTOMLESS TRUST




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7tlg_HiZsc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWLqu5DWtbw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtiWFkyvh4o
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J__kLNLIPpA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7tlg_HiZsc
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Lifes' expressions are always changing.
It's man who gets stuck.

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People who get bored are not deep enough.

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If one allows Life to do the guiding...
everything will be alright.

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What use is an enlightened mind when the feelings are not fully developed?
Without them (feelings) one would not be able to live.
God exists in feelings.

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Life is one big test.

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The easiest way to find out what you are, is to negate everything you are not.

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Pain and suffering
drives one deeper.

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Focus on the potential,
it will become actual.

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Without bottomless trust,
how can one live life to the fullest?

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To get attention
you have to pay attention.

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No one can say what Truth is, one can only live it in the Silence of themselves.

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Without religions, you wouldn't have wars!

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Everyone has a contract with life...fulfill the terms and be happy.

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If you want a new life, let go of the old and live anew.

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If you want to experience Reality you have to shatter your belief systems.
That's easy....stop believing!

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Every day is a good day...
It's just that some appear to be better than others.

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Every day is the same. It just has a different name.

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Desires fulfilled breed more desires.

Monday, August 24, 2015

THE GIFT OF LIFE




I seek no ones approval, therefore, I am.
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God gives the gift of life. You have no right whatsoever to criticize or complain about it. If you're not satisfied with the gift
then give it back.
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Insecurity is an obstacle
which blocks the flow
of love.
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People who live in the 'known' get bored
very easily.
My world is the
'unknown'
No one gets bored here.
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One can not imagine what they haven't experienced.
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People are frightened of their own potential.
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Feeding greed is
a full-time job.
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Originality comes from the
Original.
The Source!

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Anything that is born lives with the fear of dying - except life itself.
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No bees
  No pollen
No crops
FAMINE


Sunday, August 23, 2015

I DON'T KNOW IS THE KEY




'I DON'T KNOW' is the key that unlocks the door of ignorance.
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Limited knowledge is bondage
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A mind, full of idle chatter is overheated. Cool the mind with the
Swans song & know your own secret, then all other secrets will be revealed.
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Manifest your greatest desire and the lesser desires automatically are fulfilled.
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"Someone once asked me a question about religion. My answer was, "Once you can walk why do you need a crutch?"
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 Where your world ends, my world begins. When you see me alive I am dead. When you see me dead, I am alive!
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Saturday, August 22, 2015

INSTRUCTIONS FROM THE GURU

Guruji asked me, when I first met him, "If this is the happiest you are ever going to be for the rest of your life, will that be alright? I didn't answer immediately. I had to think about it. Then I said, "yes". (I wasn't exactly ecstatic about it, because at that time, I didn't feel that 'happy'!) Now I see how it works; by saying 'yes', a door opened to a state beyond happiness...endless joy, causeless joy. Not that it isn't work to keep out those things that I allow to get in the way of that joy flowing and sometimes it's really hard work.

More 'words heard' -

Take the conditions off of Love and live in the Garden.
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Without the Touchstone, there is no Gold.
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Praying for 'things' will not attract Him...Unconditioned love COMPELS Him!
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Destruction of ignorance manifests God.
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Once you find God in yourself, then where can you look without seeing Him?
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The old world is dead and gone - This is the birth of the Golden Age. (Are you ready for the labor pains?)
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If you want stability, don't rock the boat!
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The full power of God lies within me, therefore, I am His Grace.
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If you don't have access to fire then you don't have access to Hot Ideas!
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It's a full-time job...just living.
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There is no aging in a 'child-like' state.
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Beyond name, shape & form, there is no such thing as death.
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One has to love oneself unconditionally. Anything else is unacceptable.

WITHOUT YOU WHAT IS THERE?

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J__kLNLIPpA
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War never ever
bore the fruit
of peace.
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Once you give it  up
there's nothing to take.
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First comes understanding,
second comes peace.
That is direct knowledge.
That is experience talking.
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See what life has in store.
See how it unfolds.
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What's in a name?
A relationship.
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My name is the greatest mantra.
GURU OM
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You can't have
devotion without trust.
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When it's done from the heart,
there's no way to keep score.
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Take a weak man & put
him in a power position &
all you're going to have is trouble.
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Once you've experienced
the joy of living without drama,
you'll never go back to it.
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Understand the mechanics of your mind
& be free from its' illusions.
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Without freedom
there is no life.
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I love my
child-like
insanity.
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Everyone
is a disciple
of love.
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Fear of love &
the  dilemma of
self-sabotage.
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Acceptance of
the unchangeable.
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You can't go
beyond what
you don't know.
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The
intensity
of love.
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In order for
ignorance to be destroyed
something has to be sacrificed.
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The quality of thinking,
or lack thereof,
shapes and forms ones' life.
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That's what the world is made of ~
A pair of opposites.
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One talks
as
they think.
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Things get done
when the talking stops.
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There is no world
without you ~ right?
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Accepting what comes in
& accepting what goes out.
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No influence, no power,
leads to frustration and anger.
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The challenge
of making the attempt
keeps one on their toes.
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Once you have had everything
taken away from you,
you don't need
to practice Gratitude.
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If you have to
ask what to do ~
then don't do it.
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Don't create problems,
then you won't have
any obstacles in your life.
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The function of the Guru
 is to put you in the right position.
That is his part.
Your part is 'resist ye not!'
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There is enough
drama, pain and suffering
in the world, without adding to it.
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Every disaster
is a blessing
in disguise.
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God is perfect. God created man in his own image. Therefore, you are perfect.
If you don't believe me then you better have a chat with Him and ask Him why he made you imperfect.
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PERFECTION
INCLUDES
IMPERFECTION
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Playing with delusion
rarely makes one happy.
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If you want something new
to manifest
in your life
or a new life,
then new thinking
is required.
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Thinking clouds vision.
Contemplation clears it.
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You deserve everything.
Can you give yourself so much?
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The reflections are different but the source of light remains the same, like sparks from a fire they are all different but they come from the same fire.
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Positive thinking
eradicates worry.
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God implants the idea to seek out the Guru.
The Gurus' job is to introduce you to God.
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There can never be
enough laughter in life.
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Suffering will prod you
towards the Ocean of Love.
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If I don't exist,
the world doesn't exist.
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Once you break the laws of Nature,
don't expect Nature to support you.
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Once one accepts
a concept
it appears as real.
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Whenever Nature
makes an exception
to one of its laws,
Man calls it a miracle.
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What
makes
everything
possible?
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Life is always changing.
It's Man who gets stuck.
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Only great Beings can drag society
up to higher levels of consciousness.
He does this by refusing
to allow society
to drag him down.
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If one allows Life
to do the guiding,
everything will be alright.
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One has to be
fully present or fully absent.
Floating around in the middle
means you are stuck.
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Feelings
are
needed
to feel.
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Stick with the basic, simple facts
and you can't go wrong.
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Without bottomless Trust
how can one live life
to the fullest?
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To get attention
you have to pay attention.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

WHAT IS DESTRUCTION?



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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cs19_cSXbhk&feature=channel_video_title
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWLqu5DWtbw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtiWFkyvh4o
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J__kLNLIPpA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7tlg_HiZsc

Destruction
is the precursor
to evolving.
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If you have never experienced
a quiet mind -
how will you know
I am telling you the truth?
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In a corrupt society,
justice is bought and sold
to the highest bidder.
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When one realizes
that they have no
control over anything...
it's called a crisis!
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In the Aboriginal way;
whatever you take
from the Planet
you have to give back.
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EVERYTHING
exists
in the mind
of man.
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The only thing
choices
can do
is confuse.
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At the end of the day,
all one can do is
accept.
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You can't control people
unless they are worrying.
"NO WORRIES MATE!"
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When one asks,
"What can we do about it?"
Know that it's already too late
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The act
of studying the mind,
heals.
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When business is fair,
it's Godly.
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One can have power
in the world
when they have power
over their mind.
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Constant
attention.
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Love
does not control -
fear does.
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There is
an abundance of happiness
in each and every one of us.
Prove me wrong!
Stop creating misery.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

HOW I DEALT WITH A BULLY

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Xmas was on its way again so mi mum asked me and mi sisters what we would like for the occasion.

"I want a Brindle Greyhound for Xmas so I can go rabbiting on the moors." I said.

"You're getting no bloody Brindle Greyhound out of me!" sez Iris.

"Then why bother to ask me what I want?"

This type of conversation went backwards and forwards all the way up till a couple of weeks before Xmas.

One evening, Iris said to me, "You can have a Springer Spaniel if you want a dog but I'm not buying a bloody Greyhound. They look like they've never been fed for a bloody month of Sundays!"

I was not interested in a Springer Spaniel but that's what they decided to buy me for Xmas so I just had to make the best of it. I picked the puppy up from the station on the 24th of December. Although I did not want a Springer Spaniel, it was a bit hard not to like it when I opened the crate and it ran out and licked my face. It was so happy to be out of the crate as it ran around in small circles not knowing what to do.

Over the months, Raja grew into a fine dog but my heart was never in him because I always wanted a Greyhound. 'Spaniels are not bad dogs.' I thought but they're no use at catching rabbits. During the day when we were at school and Iris and Jim were at work, Raja lived downstairs in the large cellar room. It was a great big room with a concrete slab floor and a sliding window, which let lots of light in for him.

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Around this time, I had devised another business scheme where I could make misen a good few bob as the price of cigarettes and sweets was always going up. Ryburn School used to run a school lunch program. Every child who wanted to eat the school dinners could do so for 5/- a week. Some kids used to live quite close to the school so they would usually go home for dinners. Boston Street was about a 15 minute run from Ryburn School. Unbeknownst to mi mother, I decided to keep mi 5/- dinner money and run home of a lunch time and make misen a cup of tea and some toast and jam. Now I had 5 bob a week extra to survive on. After I had been doing this for about a month I had another hair-brained scheme which I presented to a few of the boys who used to smoke behind the back of the Gym.

"This is how it works." I said "You all get 5 bob a week from your mothers for your school dinner, so every Monday morning, instead of paying the 5 bob to the class teacher you can pay me 2/6d and keep 2/6d for yourselves and out of the 2/6d you pay me you can come down to mi mothers place and I'll make you all 4 pieces of toast with margarine and raspberry jam on it. Oh, and one pot of tea between however many of you decide to come."

"That's not a bad idea Dick Lad." Said one boy. "4 pieces of toast and jam will be much tastier than those rotten school dinners and I'll have half-a-crown a week left for fags. I'll start next Monday!"

Before the following Monday morning had rolled around I had signed up 4 boys for my school dinner scheme. When Monday mornings arrived, each boy gave me half-a-crown, which meant I had collected 10 bob plus I own 5 bob dinner money. That meant I now had 15 bob in mi pocket. I was rich, beyond my imagination.

There was about 20 large slices in a loaf of bread. I had already figured out that I could feed all 4 boys for a cost of about 4 bob a week. 15/- minus 4 bob expenses would leave me with 11 bob a week, clear profit!

The first Monday we all met a pre-arranged area in the playground and as soon as all 4 boys were present we took off at a fast run down to mi mums house. Before we got to the top of Boston Street I told the boys that they were to go down to the front door of the house because most of the neighbors lived in the back kitchens during the day and I didn't want nosy neighbors telling mi mum that a bunch of schoolboys were seen entering her premises when she was away at work. I made each boy 4 pieces of toast and jam and a cup of Liptons' tea. After everyone was finished, I cleaned the place up so mi mum would not know, then we made our way slowly back up the hill to school, smoking and laughing and having a good old time!

Each morning, before I went to school, I would buy a large loaf of bread and hide it in mi room along with the jar of jam and the tub of margarine. After a couple of months of this, I got so good at cooking up the toast without burning it that the boys gave me the nickname of 'Toast Man'.

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One day a couple of the boys decided they'd had enough toast and jam to last them till the end of their school days so they stopped coming for toast and went back to paying for school dinners. This meant I was now 2 customers short and minus 5 bob a week, which I had already got used to having, therefore, I had to go back around the school Gym wall at first break and drum up some more business.

Johnny Brown decided he would like to give a couple of week's trial and another boy, Ted Eubanks said he'd start coming down as well. Eubanks was a great big fat kid who was well known as one of the schools toughest bullies, so I didn't have a great deal of say in the matter.

The first week Brown and Eubanks paid their half crown each and everything seemed to go quite well until Eubanks started asking for more than the agreed upon amount of toast.

"Give me another couple a' pieces of toast, Swindells! I'm still hungry!"

"No." I said. "4 slices is what you’ve paid for and you've already eaten all 4. There's no more for you until tomorrow!"

"I'm not coming down here next week! I don't like like this bloody deal!" said Eubanks.

"Suit ya' self. You're the only one who has ever complained so far."

The following Monday when I went around the boys to collect their half-crowns, Eubanks said "I'm not coming down this week. I'm spending the whole 5 bob on fags. Anyway, I'm already sick of toast and jam."

"Alright, no problem." I said. "I'll find somebody else to replace you."

The following day, which was Tuesday, Eubanks said to me, "I've spent all mi money on fags so I've got nowt left to buy misen some lunch with. Can I come down to your place for some toast?"

"No, you didn't pay your money yesterday, the same as the other boys did so you can't come this week. You can start coming down again next week as long as you pay the half-crown on Monday morning."

"I'm comin' down with Brownie at lunch time whether you like it or not!"

"You can walk down with Brownie as far as you like but you won't be coming in!"

When lunchtime arrived, Eubanks fell in at Brownies side and refused to leave. He walked all the way down to mi mums' house. When I let the boys in through the front door, Eubanks forced his way into the house and refused to leave. As I was making the toast and tea for everyone in mi mums' kitchen, he started to make a big nuisance of himself and made rude jokes about mi mums' house so I said to him, "Alright Ted, I'll make you a deal. If you go back out the front door, I'll push a piece of toast through the letter box for you."

After a few minutes he agreed to go out of the houses but not before I threatened to call the cops and tell them he forced his way into mi mums' house. Before he left the kitchen, because I had the upper hand over him, he pulled out his dick and stuck it in mi mums' teapot and started to laugh. He also encouraged the other boys to laugh. This made me really angry. I said to one of the other boys, "Alright, go and call the cops and if not I'll go and call them and put you all in with Eubanks!"

"Alright Swindells, I'm going." Eubanks said "But I still want mi piece of toast shoved through the letter box."

"Not before you're out of here!" I said.

Once this big fat bully was outside, I locked the door behind him.

'BANG, BANG, BANG!' He knocked very loudly on the front door.

"What do you want?" I said.

"Shove mi piece of toast through!"

"Fuck you Eubanks. I changed mi mind now!"

"I'll go around to the back door and make a commotion so the neighbors know what's going on!"

"Fuck you!" I said as I walked away from the front door.

3 minutes later he was thumping on the back door. I shouted though the letterbox to him, "Go away, you're making a nuisance out of yourself!"

"If you give me one piece of toast I'll go away quietly and not bother you again."

"Alright." I said. "One piece and that's it!"

As soon as a piece of toast and jam was ready, I said to him, through the letter box, "I've got one piece here for you and I'll shove it through the letter box if you promise to go away and leave us alone!"

"Alright, shove it through!"

I opened the letterbox door and pushed the piece of toast and jam through. Fat pudgy fingers grabbed it and it disappeared out of sight.

I thought that was going to be the end of it but after a couple of minutes he started to shout and bang on the door again!

"What d'ya want now?" I said.

"Give me some more toast Swindells. I'm hungry!"

"Go away. You've already had one piece and your reneging in the deal!"

"I'm not going until you give me another slice!"

As I was watching the toast cook, I noticed a slice that had a large air-bubble in it but the whole didn't go all the way through to the other side. I had a brainwave!!

"I'll get rid of him." I said to the boys.

"What ya gonna' do Dick?" said Brownie.

"Just watch me and you'll see."

Opening mi mothers' cutlery drawer, I took out an old butter knife and opened the cellar door.

"Don't feed that piece of toast to the dog, Dick. I'll eat it."

"You wont' eat it when I'm finished with it!" I said.

"Where ya going with the toast and knife, Dick?"

"Come on and I'll show you."

When we all got down the cellar steps Raja was happy see us all and I was happy to see what Raja had left on the cellar floor! Bending down over a large solid dog turd, I sliced a big piece off of it and pushed it into the air bubble hole in the piece of toast.

"Lets go back upstairs." I said, amidst 3 loud, laughing voices.

"Now what?" said Brownie.

"Now I'm going to cover the dog shit with a liberal serving of margarine and jam."

"Then what?"

"Then, I'm going to push it through the letterbox for Eubanks. Just watch!"

"Eubanks!" I called out.

"Where's my toast Swindells?"

"Coming right up Teddy." I said. "Open the letterbox!"

The letterbox opened and I pushed the dog-shit sandwich through. The fat fingers grabbed it and the letterbox snapped tightly shut.

We all sat down at mi mums table and waited for the results. Eubanks voice boomed through the letterbox again.

"That was really great! Give me one more slice and I really will go this time Swindells. I won't bother you anymore after that and I won't beat you up either!"

"Alright Ted but this is definitely the last piece! All right?"

"All right Swindells, it's a deal."

After toasting a piece of bread I dug out a large hole in one side of it and then went back downstairs in the cellar and filled the hole with some fresh dog shit spread. Back upstairs I covered the dogshit spread with another liberal amount of margarine and jam.

"Last piece coming through Ted!" I said, as I again pushed the slice of toast through the letterbox door.

Everybody maintained silence again as we listened for Ted crunching down on the dogshit sandwich. After he'd finished he called through the letterbox, "Thanks Swindells, that was great. It'll keep me going until 4 O'clock this afternoon. You're not a bad bloke after all! It will save me the trouble of beating you up now. I'm off! See you all later. I watched him walk past mi mums' kitchen window and off up the street he went.

"Alright, the coast is clear. Eubanks has gone!" I said.

Raucous laughter burst out of everyone for about 10 minutes.

"That was really a good show Dick", said Tony Steele.

"He won't stick his dick in mi mums' teapot again for some time!" I said, between laughs.

"Come on, let's get cleaned up or we'll be late back for school."

Later on that afternoon, Johnnie Brown came to see me at one of the school breaks.

"Ted's after you Dick. He's gonna' punch your head in after school!"

"Why would he be after me?" I said. "The last time I saw him leaving mi mums' house he was all right towards me?"

"He knows you put dog shit on his pieces of toast!"

"Well, if he found out, it must have come from you."

"It just sort-of slipped out when we were talking in class." Brownie said.

"Like hell! You told him on purpose Brown! Here's the rest of ya weeks dinner money back. I don't want to hang around with you anymore. You're either for me or against me so it's pretty plain to me that you're against me, which is alright by me because at least I know where I stand with you now!"

Brownie was not too happy about what I said because I told him the Truth.

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Eubanks was waiting for me with his cronies when I came out of class at 4 O'clock. I had to dodge around him so as not to get beaten up. I gave Eubanks the slip for about 2 weeks until finally one evening; him and his mates were hiding behind a wall in wait for me!

When he finally grabbed hold of me he gave me 2 or 3 hard punches before I was able to get away. Brown showed his true colors because he was with Eubanks at the time, egging him on and laughing.

I was determined that Eubanks would not make me cry and as soon as he let go of my Blazer, I made my getaway at top speed. Eubanks was a fatty so he could not catch me, although he tried.

"SCREW YOU EUBANKS!" I said as I ran down the road. "YOU TOO BROWNIE! I'M GLAD YOUR TATTOO GOT FUCKED UP. YOU DESERVE ALL YOU GET!"